However, it was not until the household interviews took place that the full level of emotion became apparent to me.
Household Interviews and emotionally-sensed knowledge
3.3 The level of emotion circulating amongst the interviewee took me by surprise as it was not something that I had fully anticipated, as indicated by my research diary entry after one of the first interviews:
This interview seemed to go very well. This occupant had a lot of problems, particularly initially. I could feel that she was becoming rather upset when talking about her problems and it struck me that this is not something I had banked on. This made me feel a little awkward and I thought it may be worth discussing with the research team in advance of the next round of interviews (Research diary, 8/8/12).
3.4 In other studies, the willingness of participants to vent emotions openly in interviews has been put down to the intimacy of the research setting and to the trusting relationship developed between the researcher and the participants (Bailey 2008) However, in this study, it may be that participants volunteered for the research as they wanted an opportunity to vent their anger. From the moment I contacted occupants to organise interviews, some were keen to express their feelings about their new homes. When calling an occupant to organise an interview, he stated that ‘I would be sorry to ask them about their home’. He felt that ‘it was a disgrace how they had been treated by the Council’ (Research diary, 8/8/12). On arriving at the homes of participants, some started to complain when they answered the door:
The occupants in this household said that they hoped that I was ready for their complaints. From the minute of entering the house, both occupants complained that this house was not what they had been promised. They felt that they had been misled and were paying for the privilege of putting up with problems like not having heating or a flushing toilet (Research diary 11/8/12).
3.5 These interactions were important and demonstrated that interviews begin at the point you make contact with participants (Bailey 2008) and highlights the importance of recording these exchanges in a research diary. That is, the diary can allow the researcher to capture the emotional impact of the interview encounter that may not be immediately evident when reading the interview transcript alone (Broom et al. 2009). This points to the primary importance of the experiential component of emotion (Barbalet 2002).
3.6 When conducting interviews some of the questions received an emotional response. For example, one couple saw no advantage to moving to their new home:
Interviewer: So are there advantages to having moved here?
Interviewee 1: No. I would rather deal with the stairs
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than the trouble that we've had. I mean, even outside the cost of the electricity bills, the cost of being left with no shower for ten days, em… it's just, it's a good idea but they've done it wrong.
Interviewee 2: If it had worked, if we'd come in, I know there's going to be teething problems, but if everything had worked as it's supposed to, it would be ideal. Like if we didn't have to wait ten days for a shower because that's our only method of washing apart from a tiny sink. D'you know what I mean? We've had to then go down to family and friends or whatever to get showers, you know. It's just ridiculous that somebody can leave us ten days without any proper washing facilities. (Interview 1, 11/8/12).
3.7 After this interview concluded, the couple informed me that other occupants on this site had already put in for a council transfer due to high energy costs and technical problems. They then went on to say that they were ‘trapped’ in their new home because there was so little social housing available with the disabled access they required (Research diary, 13/8/12). This conveyed to me how desperate they must feel in their current housing situation and I could sense feelings of empathy for these residents growing stronger and I felt motivated to help them as much as I could. That is, the sharing of emotions created a link between the interviewer and the interviewees (Cantó-Milá 2016; Seebach and Nùnez-Mosteo 2016).
3.8 Some participants became visibly upset during the interview. Whilst interviewing an elderly woman she said that she could feel herself ‘becoming upset’ as she recounted the technical problems she had with her toilet, her heating and hot water when she moved in. She explained that the lack of heating and hot water caused her arthritic pain to worsen and how embarrassed she felt having to ask to use her neighbour's toilet when hers was not working (Interview 1, 8/8/12). I could see her trying to control her emotions, holding back tears and wringing her hands, and it became clear that participants had to employ emotional work during the interview process (Hochschild 1985). It also pointed to the possible influence that emotional experiences can have on participant's accounts of their experiences and indicates that participants also engage in emotional reflexivity during the research process. Thus, emotions influence memories whilst at the same time remembering influences our current emotional states.
3.9 The above interview had a particularly strong impact on me – I could feel myself becoming emotional as I imagined how my mother (of a similar age to the participant) would feel in such a situation. Not wanting the emotional exchange to escalate, as I could sense that the participant wanted to control her emotions for fear of embarrassment and I wanted to maintain a professional demeanour, I listened to her story quietly before moving on. On reflection, it struck me that there is an emotional cost for both participants and researchers when conducting research in which participants reflect on emotionally charged, negative experience. Participants engage in emotion work, whereby they try to control their negative emotions, whilst researchers engage in emotional labour by controlling their emotional responses. In not responding to the research participant in the way I would a friend, also instilled feelings of guilt on my part. This fuelled an increasing responsibility to represent these participants’ perspectives to the research team and ACC. It also occurred to me that negative emotions may have a more powerful impact on researchers when listening to participants’ accounts of their experiences than positive ones.
3.10 The second round of interviews revealed the continuing emotional impact the technical problems and high costs had on the occupants in the new homes. One occupant claimed that the financial stress caused by high rents and energy bills took its toll on her marriage:
Interviewer: So what kind of impact have all these problems had on your life then?
Interviewee: My marriage breakdown.
Interviewer: Ok.
Interviewee: Because it's either pay your rent or worry about your energy prices that you're having to pay. With all the faults and everything that's gone on in the house, it leads to arguments and worries, and my marriage broke down (Interview 2, 5/12/12).
3.11 When discussing this issue, I could see that the interviewee was trying to control her emotions by avoiding eye contact and maintaining a steady voice. In this instance it seemed that she was using emotion work to follow feeling rules she felt framed the encounter. This made me feel a little awkward as I wanted to show sympathy without escalating her emotional state.
3.12 Another occupant became upset as she explained that moving to her new home had completely changed her lifestyle, and that of her children, in a detrimental way:
Interviewer: How has moving here impacted upon your lifestyle?
Interviewee: Em, I just think over in my old house I did not have much worries, you know, I could put on my electric I did not ever think oh I cannot put on the kettle or I cannot put on the TV. But here I'm constantly worried, and I just feel it was the worst decision in my life to take a house like this. Do you know what I mean? (Interview 2, 3/12/12).
3.13 During this part of the interview, the interviewee became upset and I had to switch the recorder off to allow her to take a breather. She went on to explain that, due to the high rents and energy bills, she could not afford to live in her new home on the benefits she received and her teenage daughter had, therefore, to give up a promising career in football to get a paid job so that they could afford the bills (Research diary, 3/12/12). Again, I could recognise the reciprocation between the emotion work and costs to the participant and the emotional labour of the researcher following standardised protocols to deal with upset research participants. That is, I had to follow guidelines drawn up by the research team in line with professional ethics and, in doing so, my response felt unsatisfactory as I would have liked to have shown my sympathies more overtly. It occurred to me that my lack of emotional response to participants’ stories could also appear unsympathetic to the research participants. This may have contributed to research fatigue and participants withdrawing from the study or appearing less enthusiastic to participate in follow-up interviews. This is demonstrated in notes taken in my research diary during the last round of interviews:
When I arrived for interview the participants were not at home. I waited and the female householder drew up in the car. She said that she forgot about me coming today and she was busy but to come in ‘anyway’. Whilst I chatted to her, she carried on putting shopping away and repeated that she and her family were ‘fed up with the whole thing and she could not be bothered talking about it anymore’. I therefore decided to forgo the interview and informed her that her views would be put forward to the council in the final report. This stood in contrast to the earlier enthusiasm this household displayed when they initially volunteered to take part in the research (Research diary, 15/1/13).
3.14 It may also go some way to explain why a number of participants reported feeling ‘fed up’ and appeared less motivated to participate in the second and third interviews, with some participants dropping out. This points to an important consideration when conduction longitudinal research of negative experiences in that the ongoing cost of emotional reflexivity and emotional work of participants, coupled with the muted emotional response of the professional researcher, may discourage participants completing the research project. This suggest that, whilst sharing emotional experiences can link people together, a failure to display emotions can result in a disconnection between them. It also highlights the importance of providing care for both research participants and researchers when dealing with emotional subject matter (Dickson-Swift et al. 2009; Goodrum and Keys 2007; Hubbard et al. 2001).
3.15 These qualitative interviews allowed me to empathise with the emotional impact moving into these homes had on occupants. I could easily identify with the technical and financial problems and imagine the kind of impact that they would have on elderly relatives and single-parent families within my own family. I also shared some of their frustrations and disappointments. I believe, therefore, that I developed a fuller understanding of these research participants. This demonstrates how ‘emotionally-sensed knowledge’ can enhance ethnographic understanding (Hubbard et al. 2001). I will now go onto demonstrate how reflecting on these emotional aspects of the research also allowed me to understand how my feelings of empathy with these occupants developed and how this then effected my representation of the research field.
Emotions, field position and representation
3.16 From the beginning of the report writing stage, it seemed clear that I was more motivated to present a fuller account of the occupants’ negative experiences. For example, on reading the first report for ACC, I noted that the technical problems and high costs faced by occupants had not been fully documented. The project leaders explained that this was because the Council already had a record and knowledge of the complaints. However, I argued that some occupants felt that their complaints had not been fully heeded:
Interviewer: What motivated you to participate in the research?
Interviewee 1: Well it's just to get our point across because all you get is excuses. You know “oh, it's new technology”. Well, solar panels isn't new technology, it's existed a long time. And, it's just excuse after excuse “oh, it's a new build”, whereas if we were living in a flat built in 1945 we'd have had compensation for all this carry on. With a new-build, you don't get anything (Interview 1, 13/8/12).
3.17 I, therefore, argued that we had a responsibility to represent the occupants’ views and give voice to a less powerful group as repayment for their time and cooperation in the research process (Lumsden 2012). The team agreed to some extent and added more ethnographic detail surrounding technical problems and high costs to the report with a fuller summary of problems added as an appendix. Similarly, in the second report, I felt that the impact the technical problems and high costs had on the lives of the occupants needed to be documented with examples from the second round of interviews. Whilst some ethnographic detail was then added to the report, I still felt that more emotive examples could have been used. However, I felt that I could not further my case against the wishes of the senior researchers. This is illustrated in a note in my research diary:
After reading the draft of the second report for ACC I felt disappointed that more details of the residents’ negative experiences had not been included. I emailed the principal investigators who replied that we needed to focus on ways to improve the experience. I still felt guilty that I had not been able to represent these householders in the way I would have liked but had to be satisfied that I had tried to get their voice heard and had succeeded to some extent (Research diary 10/3/13).
3.18 It also struck me that the project leaders seemed focused on evidence of learning and adaptation at the expense of problems. For example, I was somewhat surprised to read discussions of local ‘experts’ and ‘champions’ when I felt that the evidence continued to point to continuing technical problems and a lack of knowledge and understanding of the technologies. On discussing this with one of my colleagues, he explained that he wanted to produce a report that the Council and householders would find useful rather than reminding them of problems. He also pointed out that his disciplinary baggage as an educational researcher probably shaped his reading of the data. This highlights the importance of researchers’ biographies and one of the advantages of reflexivity as a collective process (Pilnick 2013). Indeed, further reflection on my part highlighted that I needed to be careful not to be so influenced by the negative experiences that it excluded the perspectives of residents who reported a more positive experience. This further implies that negative emotions may be more influential than positive and may require more close scrutiny in our reflections.
3.19 Thus, emotional reflexivity allowed me to reveal how my field position influenced my interpretation of the data. That is, the emotional stories told during the interview resulted in my developing a greater empathy with those research participants who had had a negative experience than others in the research team. I am not, therefore, suggesting my colleagues did not sympathise with the occupants, but I am arguing that my first hand exposure to their stories led to a fuller understanding of the emotional impact moving to their new home had and provided me with a fuller understanding of their situation. In this case listening to the emotional stories of the occupants deepened my understanding of this particular group within the research field and enhanced my ethnographic knowledge (Hubbard et al. 2001). My colleagues, who tendered for the research project and who had spent more time with the council representatives, may have had a greater understanding of what was required by the funders and a fuller understanding of their viewpoint. We, therefore, occupied different positions within the research field which impacted upon how we wished to present our research findings. Whilst it is not an issue that will be fully explored here, this points to the importance of power, politics and the construction of knowledge in funded research and a potential role for emotional reflexivity in exploring these dynamics. What I hope to demonstrate here is how emotional reflexivity enhanced the degree of objectivity attained in this project.
Emotional reflexivity and the guiding principle of objectivity
3.20 On reflection, it became clear that many of my additions to the report were about the negative experience of some participants. When looking back through the data again, there was clear evidence that some occupants were happy in their new home. For example, one occupant commented: ‘I would recommend these technological systems to be installed in all social housing. It would save people on low incomes an awful lot of money, and make a big impact in reducing carbon emissions’ (Survey, July 2012). Similarly, there were those respondents who reported liking their new homes:
Interviewee: Yes, the house is great. Much more room than my last place and the people are nice – the neighbours ‘n that, ken. The wifey from the coonsil as well, she's been really good, getting things fixed and showin’ us how to work the heatin’ (Interview 2, 5/12/12).
3.21 Furthermore, whilst some occupants had very expensive energy bills, which were difficult to account for, others perceived their bills to be greater than they actually were. For example, four occupants, who claimed that their energy bills were much higher than their previous home, proved to be mistaken when costs were explored in greater detail in the second round of interviews. These perceptions, I feel, were affected by the high levels of anxiety across the sites. One occupant said that she was ‘worried’ about her forthcoming bill, even though she had yet to receive one. Many occupants also spoke about residents getting to get together to discuss bills as they came in:
Interviewer: Do you discuss your bills with your neighbours?
Interviewee: Yes, it's just like, as soon as the post hits the mat we're all out into the park to discuss how much we've been ripped off this time (Interview 1, 10/8/12).
3.22 It seemed to me that the negative emotions surrounding energy bills and technical problems amplified perceptions of cost amongst occupants. Similarly, when asked about the information and guidance given and what they had learned about the technologies many of the occupants offered negative replies:
Interviewer: When you first moved in, what information were you given about the technologies here?
Interviewee: None.
Interviewer: Nothing?
Interviewee: None
Interviewer: Did anybody from the council tell you about the technologies?
Interviewee: Nope. They just told me not to touch the upstairs cupboard where all the stuff for the solar panels is (Transcript of Interview 2 with occupant from site B).
3.23 Another typical response from occupants claimed that the only thing they had learned about the technology was that ‘it does not work’. However, when probed further, it became apparent that occupants had been given some information and guidance in the form of manuals and demonstrations and many had learned a lot about the technology in their homes. For example, there was some evidence of occupants fixing problems with their neighbours’ heating and hot water. It occurred to me that the stress and anxiety caused by the technical problems and the failure to achieve quick repairs had overshadowed the learning experience. The emotional experiences coloured the resident's accounts and highlights the importance of considering the effect negative experiences can have on research participants and their accounts. I can now also recognise that in sharing these anxieties with occupants during the interviews my perceptions could have also been influenced. This, in turn, could have then led me to emphasise these negative experiences at the expense of the positive. By focusing on these problems, I could therefore hinder the objectives of others in the research team They therefore to remind me that one of the aims of the research project was to try to get past the focus on technical problems and high costs and, instead, to identify ways to improve information and guidance, maximize the learning experience and to encourage cost efficient practices. It is also important, however, to keep in mind that these reminders of the Council and research team objectives changed my position within the research field and, in turn, my interpretation and dissemination of the research data. It must also be recognised that one advantage of group research projects is that colleagues can stimulate reflexivity and encourage a more balanced analysis (Pilnick 2013).